Projecting my future

Projects and essays have been my nemesis since I can remember. It’s hard enough time just figuring out where to start, but then I have to keep it going without getting distracted, not to mention that it can be almost impossible when it’s a subject that I don’t care about. It doesn’t take long for my mind to go “Screw this!” and I’ll either go do something else, or I’ll start thinking of something else.

I think that’s why going into accounting kind of appealed to me. Very few essays, and a lot of the work feels like puzzle solving such as figuring out what account something goes under and why. I’m in my final year of the Accounting program in college, and that means I now have to start thinking about my life after school. I also now have to take into account how I’m going to deal with adapting my strategies in dealing with ADHD into the workforce.

The incentive of a paycheque will make it easier to deal with the more mundane parts of work, but at the same time, I worry about eventually becoming bored with it after a time. That is very possible something that could happen considering the nature of the work, and part of ADHD is losing interest quickly in mundane activities and enjoying the novelties of life. Alternatively, my ADHD could also help in the workplace since it can help me hyper-focus and do a complete thorough job if the work interests me.

I know it sounds like I’m trying to make excuses for not doing work, and being flaky in general. Trust me, though; I’ve always been my own biggest critic when it comes to this stuff, so externalizing the frustrations that I feel and reminding myself that it’s the ADHD that I need to overcome and work through helps to not get too critical of myself, and give me more motivation to learn how to work better with it.

Writing this blog is part of that process. I’m slowly learning about things I can do to help me stay focused, and that there are just some times where I realize that my brain has decided to stop functioning properly, and working through it is useless and come back to it later. I’m also learning when to notice those times where I can be more productive too. Hopefully this can help lead me to be a more productive person in general, and more forgiving of myself as well.